Ankles

Today was my last competition ever. We came in second, same as Nationals last year. It just so feels so strange and final, you know?? Lots of things seem to be ending right now, and the only one I don't have mixed feelings about is winter. I'm glad for winter to be gone. I'm just not sure about the rest of it. I'm not sure about a lot of things. Like college. Me and my best friend have been planning for ages. We wanted to move to London, yes, London, England, and go to university there. But I won't have the money. Her family is paying for her schooling, so she doesn't think about that, but I have to. London is expensive, to live there and go to school there, and I don't want to have to spend the rest of my life paying off student loans. And I won't be qualified to get any decent jobs until I get my journalism degree, which will take about two years. And even then, jobs as a new journalist are not a given. And I just don't know how I'm going to do it. It's harder than I thought, to work out how you're going to live your life.